TODAY WAS THE LAST DAY OF SPA!!!!WOOTS. NO MORE SPA!!! also, today we celebrated dr rahman's birthday. we wanted to celebrated right after SPA exam but he disappeared! so many of us ringed him up but couldn't get so. so i decided to drop him an sms! plan went smoothly and we surprised him! a big black board and of course a present which he loves, XIAO DING DANG!!! hahas. dr rahman cute la, at his age he still likes xiao ding dang. tsk tsk.
ahhh my legs are soo muscular. but hey, it looks kinda smaller now =) COOL!!!
next up, phoebe, loretta and i walked from mjc to white sands. HA. we're like very free right? yes we are! then we dropped by to macs to get milkshakes. it was soooo freaking thick and it has at least 9g of fats. i'm NEVER drinking that again. and because of that drink, i went for a run today. AND GUESS WHO I SAW. i saw BRYAN with KIM. bryan ( tennis ) and kim( chinese actress from tpjc). they were at the playground near my house area. i was like OMG? secondly, i THINK they saw me but i HOPE NOT. tsk. like whatever.
baby's out already. he's at white sands BK slacking with his platoon mates. sadly he has to go in tomorrow evening.i hope he enjoys himself tonight and tomorrow before going in again and coming out on friday night. hahas. awww. i miss him so so much. =) loves dearest!!
shall end here. hopefully i'm able to get a new phone tomorrow. thing is, i don't know what model to get. i just want a slide phone. if not, i'll just wait for the next sony ericsson's slide clam shell phone. that phone is surely pretty =)
[[ strength will rise when we wait upon the lord ]]
i love you dearest =)
not focused.not moving properly.not hitting as usual.momentum was slower due to opponents.played like crap.totally uncomfortable with MI tennis courts. stupid elbow injury ( affected so many of my serves), shoulder injury, blister on my palm. wtf. we could have won 9-0 easily. but instead, 9-5. we gave that 5 matches away. both of us made mistakes.
it was a harsh one from ms suey,rachel and me. yes it was our fault for not playing well. it won't happen ( hopefully not cause each time it's an away match,we play like crap). get everything into our heads and don't make mistakes. play the usual game. whack each time that chance is there. no more giving points away.
only the best learn from their mistakes and move on
all the way MJC tennis team. we can make it!
dearest please get well soon k? i love you =)
[[ you won't go weary. you're the defender of the weak, you comfort those in need. you lift us up on wings like eagles. you're forever amazing. everlasting God. ]]
today was a sugar rush day. the irony is that i didn't take any sugar items! i just felt so high and rah rah for my RJC match. yeps it started out fine and i was whacking like mad. i enjoyed every shot and felt super garang to take anything. thought there was a short ball for rachel but i ended up running for it since i was at the net already. POINT SCORED =) it was exciting and my blood rushed so fast to every part of my body. HOWEVER, i couldn't keep up. distractions and i didn't focus for long. we were leading 3-1 but lost 9-3. oh what the heck, but it's ok cause it was fun! the rjc tennis teacher said rachel and i were good but we just lost focus. oh wells, game is over, shall move over to MI!!!! obviously it's time to give them sooo much "LOVE". what i meant was, thrash them.
khairil seriously had nothing to do but to scribble on my hand as a form of support for me -_-'' thanks ah. it faded off even before my match started. tsk. but thanks for coming down soo much later when i was already losing.LOL
yeah i said i had a personal matter to attend. it was rather personal. went down to meet dearest and he booked out from the army till wednesday. poor baby got himself a sore eye -_-'' his left eye was SOOO small and it kinda worried me alot. made sure he was fine and ok before i left too. he was coughing so badly too =( hopefully his medicine works and he can get well soon. i'm gonna miss him so much. wait till friday then! where i can have his wonderful grandma's porridge!! and his grandma played a HUGE joke on me today.WAH. I NEVER SEE HER LAUGH UNTIL LIKE THAT LAAAAA!!!! -_-'' boy i felt like an idiot after the joke. even khai tried to pull another joke at me. i seriously think i'm a sucker for jokes.
i think i better hurry back to my work. though i cant seem to do both maths and chem. tomorrow i better seek help desperately. i cannot fail my mid years. i want all Cs(hopefully)
MI your turn to watch out. let's thrash 5-0 =D off to quarter finals we shall!!
[[ risen glory forever where you are ]]
i'm disgusted.it's just wrong wrong wrong wrong
COLOSSEUM!! interesting event as usual. but as usual, the hot day kinda turned me off. the dance studio was sooo stuffy with hardly any air travelling around. bahh.. had fun with the tennis girls taking photos!! and for the first time, i got up close with balloons again!( hey i trusted the balloons that they won't burst!) we watched cheerleading up and all races up close. boy it was funny and we all had tons of fun! it ended pretty late too. only got home about 7.40pm or even later! nearly 2 hours have passed and i have not started to study nor do my homework. i better start after this post.
been feeling rather lethargic this week. don't know why but my energy is drained out like everyday. i feel so sleepy in class =( better get enough rest for this monday's coming RJC match. feeling very rah rah about it, hoping to at least fight them and get a well deserved score. i don't want a 9-0 even though they are number 1 in SG.
alright i think i shall stop here again. nothing much except i'm going shopping tomorrow!! far east plaza, marina square, haji lane and bugis!! i wanna buy SOOO many things =)
reminder to self again: PLEASE STAY AWAKE TO TAKE BABY'S CALL!!!
i miss him oh sooo much =) everytime he calls, i just feel so so happy!
i think i better go cut my hair tmr. it's freaking long. tsk!
i know you love me
XOXO
Gossip girl.
[[ all of heaven is rejoicing ]]
i love you baby
mjc boys and girls tennis team '08
9-4
that was the score of our match against PJC 1st doubles. rachel and I won this match. though manay mistakes were made but we won in glory =) pretty upset with myself cause i made so many freaking double faults.i admit that i was hell nervous and didn't practice enough of my service. so yah..luckily i made up as much as possible each time i served in. whacked right straight down the line to get a winner. woahs, have to thank rachel for telling me how to correct the mistakes and continuing to support me =) thanks alot babe! you rock! let's see if we can try to fight against RJC! maybe we know we'll lose but get a decent score yah? tsk (hey hey my back hand has improved alot!!!)
also special thanks to khairil. he came down to support me and tried to calm me down cause my heart was thumping so fast! thanks alot khai!! you really helped me alot!! and i did a good job messing ur hair up too!
boyfriend called last night!! talked for 30mins or so. hahas. had a pretty interesting conversation with him and his friends joining in. i can hear them talking so loudly and asking about me. LOL. he told me today he had a 4km marching thingy. hahahs. i hope he's doing well there. funny thing was that he saw mr poh but mr poh didn't see him. tsk tsk. i miss him. can't wait for him to get out of there. soon soon! 1 more week and afew more days. JIA YOU SAMANTHA.
PS. reminder to self. please stay awake and wait for his call.
end of blogging. i need to study and catch up with what i've lost tract in school.
RJC WATCH OUT.I'LL TRY MY BEST TO FIGHT AGAINST YOU ALL. TRY. hahas
[[ love love love from the Lord is everlasting ]]
i can't stand you. i really can't. i wished i never knew you nor met you. just stop acting cute around everyone. it's just so disgusting.
this year syf was no surprise. deyi won best band, best drum major award and gold with honours. seriously, i was waiting for them to take over TK . it's time for a new champion! bihui was really cute as she was sharing stuffs about deyi band with me. my my, that girl has grown up and now she's the SL of her piccolo and flute section. hahas. i missed the times i had with her and the rest of the band people in 2004 before she left.
ping yi band has done us proud by attaining a silver award =) kudos to mr poh who worked hard to achieve this award. and of course to all the seniors out there who spent so much of their time on the field with the band members. well i wished i could be part of it but thanks to my OH SO GREAT MOTHER, this dream is something i'll never achieve ( not till i reach uni. MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA). i'm so proud of my trombone section!! ringed kah jun up to asked how they were doing and i even spoke to jonathan. wahhh... i hope he didn't call me jie so loud cause it was rather embarrasing. but from his tone, i could tell he's really happy =)
yesterday was our 1 year and 3 months as well. though it was spent without him, i really hope we spent it in our hearts. it was so cute of him to hide inside the cupboard to prevent his buck mates from listening to what he has to say to me.awww...13 more days till he's out again =) i'm missing you so so much dearest!! hurry come back and we can go catch a movie !! ENJOY TEKONG!!!!
i've been spending my time online with a long lost friend, chantel =) been friends with her since primary 3? hahas. though in primary school we used to fight but in the end we were like best friends!! i still remember i went over to her house for her birthday and we had pizza for dinner! sighs, i missed the times we spent together. was supposed to meet up early this year before she left for aussie but i missed it cause our schedules kept clashing non stop. bahh. well we're hoping to meet each other in june and go SHOPPING and EATING. boy i can't wait!! chantel is one person whom i know is easy to talk to. she tells me her problems and i tell her mine. just so easy and fun to talk to her. and yes! she's a expert with bgr so i go to to her when i'm in trouble. where can you ever find a friend like her!!! I MISS YOU CHANTEL! COME BACK TO SG SOON!!!!! =)
the hatred i had yesterday seems to gone? so weird. maybe i think God took it away from me cause i really prayed for Him to comfort my heart. thanks alot God =) you're the best!
here's a really interesting video. found it from celeste chen's blog. please don't ask me why i go to her blog. you guys don't need to know why.
[[ you are the everlasting God ]]
i hate my mum.
she's selfish, unreasonable and racist. she's never considers other people's feelings and think she's bloody hell right all the time. fuck it. i hate this. i hate it when she starts imagining like mad and she'll start assuming thinking that whatever she has assumed is right.
one selfish horrible person. and to think she can make up to me by buying stuffs to me? i'm not someone you can buy over with money nor gifts.if you want to be nice. SHOW ME VIA ACTIONS. but whatever she has done to show she cares, is simply wrong in my eyes.
at this point in time, my life seriously sucks to the core. no i will not blame God. i'll just accept this fate of mine and sadly i have to live with it. since she also mentioned when i get married she'll not enter my affairs. just wait a decade. she's out of my life.. i'm just so freaking upset so many thoughts are coming to me.
i wanna run away and never come back. AHHH. i want happiness but i cannot get it. THANK YOU FOR SCREWING UP MY WONDERFUL LIFE MUM. arrgh
i know you may think i'm insane. but i wish you all can understand the hell i'm going through now. you'll never understand because your mum isnt like my mum. you would never want my mum.
i cant believe i wrote this post. i guess i need to relieve everything out somewhere. oh what the heck.
bye world. i need time alone with God.
[[ Holy is the Lord. for he is with you all the time. he'll pick you up when you fall. he's always there for you ]]
i was emo this morning. i wanted to slap myself for doing something that i should NOT have done. why did i have to sleep early? like ahhhh!! i swear i wanted to just slap myself. why? here's the reason. khai tried to call me last night before he slept. but apparently the time when he called my phone was already off cause i went to sleep. THANKS ALOT SAMANTHA. YOU"RE THE BEST. ok someone slap me
i'm not letting it happen today. i'm going to STAY UP till he calls me. no way am i going to feel sleepy nor tired. i WANT TO STAY AWAKE. i must answer his call today!!!!
shoosh. gotta do up some work. i'm feeling rather uspet again. not about him, not about school. but about my mum. rahhh... how i wished i could scream at her telling her what i think, what i felt about her, what i want to share with her. i never got the chance. i wished i could but never.. really sad but .. i don't know.. my life truly sucks in a way HOWEVER with God and khai, I CAN PULL THROUGH.
today's training was alright. rained heavily. we had to roll the courts but it started to drizzle. ahhh heck, continued to play the game. is it me or is it the lights. somehow today when it started to get darker, i couldnt see the ball laa. it's like the ball came at me but i couldn't hit it.. bahhh. this better NOT happen during tournament. i was on the row about 5 plus before the rain. aiyah. whatever la. ms suey is helping us to re string our racquets!! i hope it'll be better this time!
[[ You're amazing.wondrous. Godly.. ]]
i don't know what to type anymore. i just want to wait for his call now. see you all!
mr tee is such a good photographer!!
look at his botak head!!!! =DDDDtoday was the day he left. i was rather say but i didn't cry. don't worry i'm much better now and it's time to be independent for 17 days!!! JIA YOU!!! and boy did he look funny with his new hair cut. tsk tsk. my friends said he looks the same too. aiyah..cute and handsome la =) i wonder what is he doing in camp now..eating? bathing? unpacking stuffs? night drills? lectures? i don't know. but i pray every minute that he'll be safe =)
i stayed back to catch the guy's tennis friendly against hwa chong. like OMG. it was insane can. the HCI tennis guys is really good. but i have yet to see RJC. i heard they are even better. today eszra played amazingly well.. so many whacking shots and it was just soooo nice to watch!! bryan's match was rather alright. his opponent was sick. hahahas. sick as in one crazy player. amos played singles for the first time too!! hahas! doubles match was exciting too!
sheesh.gotta start doing physics tutorial after this. sian... i feel so lazy. i better get myself busy. i don't wanna be bored =( it's rather quiet w/o him but i'll survive!!!
end here la. i feel extremely sian... very very very sian. sorry for the boring post but yah..
[[ count on the Lord for strength for he will pull you through ]]
hang in there!!!enjoy tekong too!!
i love you =)
i wish tomorrow will never come cause it'll be like a slap in my face. sighs. what do i have to do? looks like i don't have a choice. 2 weeks. just 2 weeks and it'll be over. take it as if he's on a holiday ( which apparently isnt a holiday for him. tsk). oh shucks.. 2weeks. i shall have a count down. see what i'll become during these 2 weeks. COME ON SAMANTHA. JIA YOU! time to be independant!! you can focus on your studies too!! pros and cons!! come on come on!! time to put your relationship to the test again!! WE CAN MAKE IT THROUGH!!!!!
gotta rush through my chemistry tutorial. stupid ionic equilibria part II. so freaking difficult. rahhhhhhh.. tomorrow i shall stay back in school to mug for econs/physics/chemistry before watching the guy's tennis friendly against hwa chong. it's bound to have alot of WAH BAM BOOM! woots!!
someone remind me to pack lots of tissue packets for tomorrow. but hopefully i won't use any! well, who knows? ( i'll really try not to k )
today was kinda of an off day. i don't know what's wrong with me. i didn't listen in lectures, i couldn't pay attention. my mind drifted off so many times. wan ting had to nudge me quite a number of times so i can copy down notes. -_-''' frankly, i was pretty emotional too. i just felt as if i could cry any moment. that kind of feeling just sucks so so bad. but i didn't cry!! =D thats an achievement!!! was sharing with megan how i felt after tennis. she said it won't be as bad as what i think it would be. well, i hope so too!!
AHHH!!!! I'LL MISS YOU SOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =D
end here. i'm losing it.
[[ i'll sing and dance for you my King ]]
i love you dearest and i'll wait till you're back.mean time take care k? try to enjoy camp la huh! enjoy the sun, mud EVERYTHING. tsk tsk. this time, we will be much stronger than before =)
hello world.
weekends are soon to be over and school will start tomorrow. i guess my life cycle just repeats over and over again with the same things happening all the time. sheesh.. i can't have a proper life till my As are over.
on a sad note, dearest will be leaving for NS this wednesday. oh boy.. it'll be so weird without him around. no more noise.. no more nonsense from him for a long time. i'm bound to cry on the day he leaves but.. sian.. but obviously i'll cherish each time he sends an sms or calls me. boy i'll miss him so so much.. i hope he'll love the present i made for him. it's still in progress cause it's half way done. tonight have to burn mid night oil to complete the present =) i don't mind losing sleep just for him =)
SYF outdoor competition is one week away. this coming saturday. god knows whether i can even attend thanks to my mum. all the hell she has been giving me. if i can turn up means it's a good sign. i really hope i can go since she's out all against the band. i wished she could just give it up. the band didnt even do anything to her. she's one crazy women.
suddenly time has been passing by so fast. don't you all think so too? it's like in a blink of an eye, it's going to be a monday again. i can't grasp this reality. i've got so much to do. studies, tutorials, revision, competition(tennis). so many things.. it's going so crazy..how i wished time would stop so i can have it for myself and God and dearest too.
shall end this off with a prayer.
Dear Lord, i pray for someone special. someone whom is so dear to me.Lord i pray that you will protect him. Yes he will encounter alot of harship inside the army, but father, i pray he will not fall.Lord i also pray that you keep him safe and healthy and let no evil spirits near him. Cover him with Jesus' blood. Father in heaven, show him your glory and your plans for him. I pray that he'll be able to do the best he can inside the camp and do it at his fullest potential to achieve whatever he wants to achieve. Please provide him the strength when he's tired Lord.We all know we cannot count on human strength alone but we need to draw strength from you as well. so father, give him the strength to go on every single day in the army. Lord i also pray for his family. May you ease their minds and hearts so they will not worry so much for him. Lord i wanna thank you for bringing him into my life and all the joy i have experienced. Amen.
i'll miss you so much.
[[ lift up yours eyes and hands. the angels are rejoicing in heaven]]
updates updates!!
played AJC on monday. woahs. i was on "top form". the best i ever played.whacking and getting all my shots right. my match was 6-2 and we won. i loved it and was so garang for the next match which was today. blame it on myself. i don't know what the hell happened but i couln't play the way i used to. apparently, i played like shit. really like shit. maybe off form? service was bad. like wtf? what the hell was going on? i really wanted to fight on but i don't know what happened. fine yes we lost. lost to? TPJC. like.. the worst ever. we could have won. we could have i swear but suddenly we lost? no communication today. everything just went wrong. =( nevermind. accept this defeat and work hard from now on. i won't ever let this happen during the tournament. much less if we run into TPJC for quarter finals. i will NEVER ever play so shitty like today ever again.
thanks dearest for encouraging me and making me face my defeat. it was kinda like a slap in my face but it worked wonders. thanks alot =)
and guess what, I PASSED GP!!!! HIP HIP HURRAY. i actually got what i aimed for. next step, mid years i shall get a D !! time to start working hard for all my subjects. i gotta do well for my Mid years.
yes this picture is ancient but still, i miss them tons!
someone remind me to buy marcaroni!! i need them for my gifts !!!
i met dhea today and i went crazy. hahas. we ran to each other like some couple on the beach and we hugged so tight!! hahas. i missed her alot. i miss ping and car like crazy too!! AHHH! i want my sec sch friends!!!! dhea said i lost weight and i looked more toned. like...hello? my weight is the same.. hahas. but nvm, i'll still TRY to lose weight la huh!
shall end here. seems like a really long post.sorry to bore you people so much!!
last shout out, I MISS MY SECONDARY SCHOOL FRIENDS, BAND AND DEAREST =DDDDD
[[ you keep me safe in a crazy world ]]